Battling demons

Every now and then we go through a low phase in life. Times when we feel less optimistic about the future, doubt the reason for our very existence and let the evil monster of self-doubt take control of our life. I personally feel doubts, and negative thoughts are manifestation of devil - leading to the path of destruction. The problem with negative thoughts are that they are more powerful that positive thoughts. They need no invitation, and sneak into your being when you are weak and down, low on strength. They are like the dark clouds, blocking the source of light, just hovering over you , and slowly draining you out of all the joys in life. I find that these monsters are stubborn and need all your efforts to tame, especially when you are already low on resources to fight them.

Loss of confidence, fear and distrust all go hand in hand. At times they find a way to seep into your very essence, making your heart so heavy that there seems to be no way to escape - just the helpless feeling to sink into - and drown. Just like when you are trapped in a quicksand, fighting without any help will only quicken the end. Grab a hand, grab on any twine of hope, any glimmer of self-love and slowly but surely there would be a way out of the mess.

Self-love is the first step towards positive thinking.To see life without any distortions, to see its beauty,  we need to  see it with eyes wide open, and in bright light. In the dark even the most beautiful things can appear to be scary. If the window to let in the light seems to be too tight to open, take help . Seeking help from someone you trust, is the second step. It is no easy to find beauty in living when your mind has been taken over by thoughts that are bent on destroying you.

Faith gives us the strength to lift ourselves out of the quicksand. Hang in there, let the wave of fear come and go, listen to your heart knowing that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Reminding yourself that inspite of what the negative thoughts would have you believe, there is goodness in living, there is joy and nobody, nobody controls your mind. The fight is long , the battles might leave you weak in spirit, but fact remains that to build strength you have to keep on breaking and recreating.