Missing ......

The layered emotions of love, hatred, anger, passion, sorrow and laughter  trigger a response in us which can be be clearly defined as positive or negative.And then the emotion that I find most intriguing is the feeling of missing someone or some place. The deprivation of someone's company, the presence of absence so strong that it is pulsating and numbing at the same time.
The longing , the pining, a feeling so powerful, that it consumes your very existence. We all have lost people, been separated from our loved ones at one point or another. And all of us have experienced the endless pull of trying to fill the void in our life.
Missing, the empty space in your heart - the lacuna that nobody can fill for you. Missing someone is like trying to capture the tantalizing breeze in your hand. It is wanting  to touch, to hug, to have endless conversation, to share your everyday trials and triumphs, wanting to reach out for the unreachable.

It is a pain - a bitter sweet pain especially if someone you are missing is  gone forever. All you are left with are the memories like the whiff of perfume - intangible, sometimes vivid, sometimes blurred. Does the pain or loss ever heal? I am not sure, but the intensity does vary from time to time. Just when you think you are doing fine, and are in control, surrounded by all that you love, the feeling of longing for someone long gone creeps and grips your heart, squeezing it so tight at times that it makes it difficult to breathe. A song, a place revisited, a fragrance or just the mention can trigger off the chain of emotions, that brings out all the buried memories back to life.

Missing is intriguing because you are bringing back your memories to life, embellishing it, coloring it with your own imagination. You have the luxury of ruminating on them, to taste the times long back. It is also a reminder of what you had, a reminder that not everything lasts for ever.