Do we ever get to live life on our terms? We are all to a certain extent governed by rules and commitments. Living life on your own term demands being bold and selfish. You have to take decisions that will be good for your own growth, irrespective of what others are feeling. Yet some of us are tied up in bindings of love, commitment and responsibilities that make it impossible to live life on our terms. Am I a coward who avoids confrontation or a person who wisely compromises and moves on? Are temperance and modesty still virtues or am I just trying to buy peace by forgiving and ignoring possible injustices?
Some of these issues have been nagging me lately - especially when instead of not reacting to the outrage that was building inside me, I justified it by just being forgiving , learning the lesson and letting go. Is it wise to fight and burn bridges or just to back off?
All my life, I have chosen the battles I want to fight - ensuring that they are worth it. Who am I kidding. Actually I have only fought battles I had to - where I had no choice but to fight back to survive. I am not sure if passivity or being moderate is considered a virtue anymore.To be honest, my intentions in escaping confrontations were more to protect myself - to save myself from getting dirty.Does that make me a coward or a wise person? I am not sure.
All my life, I have chosen the battles I want to fight - ensuring that they are worth it. Who am I kidding. Actually I have only fought battles I had to - where I had no choice but to fight back to survive. I am not sure if passivity or being moderate is considered a virtue anymore.To be honest, my intentions in escaping confrontations were more to protect myself - to save myself from getting dirty.Does that make me a coward or a wise person? I am not sure.
We are never alone and our decisions are never without any repercussions. Every time I have a choice to do what feels right to me - live impulsively, or to take into consideration the effect it will have on people close to me. Some are tough - some I want to resist , some I grow to resent , yet I know even if it is with heavy heart, how the decision affects my loved ones in more important than how it makes me feel.
Lately, lot of conflicting emotions and tough decisions have made me wonder, how much of our life is owned by us? The art of living teaches to live in the present, the moments... to let go and to live life like it is your last day... Yet why is this so difficult for some of us to follow? Is it because living for yourself demands you to be selfish and not just selfish , at times callous towards feelings of others? Or is it because some people are more prone to being anchors in others life and find it painful to let go ? Or is it because we love and care about others well beings more than our own?
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