Sweating the small stuff

All our living consists of moments. Moments of happiness, sadness, but most of it, moments of mundane actions and living. Isn't our life mostly composed of day to day living?  Living life for most of us is built of small stuff.  Going to work, paying bills, chores and the list goes on. Our happiness are small - a beautiful sunset. a beautiful dress, or maybe just your child's laughter or a hug.  Our worries are also the small stuff  - mostly dealing with day to day living like work, money and our family. In the process of  everyday life, we tend to forget the bigger picture - that this too shall pass.  At times, after a hard day at work, you wonder, where is your life going. How much do we actually need to live a comfortable life? There are those, who are driven by their ambition, by their passion and those who are still finding themselves. People who find meaning and satisfaction in work are  fortunate. They have a direction in life. And there are others who are searching perpetually for the source of happiness.

I find myself searching for purpose of living.  I find myself looking inward to make sense of our senseless lives - our squabbles, our insecurities and our obsession with succeeding.The intense need  to reach . somewhere and to be somebody. Our fears and insecurities drive us, rather than love and passion.

I am  a restless soul in many ways,always looking for adventures. I am learning to love the day to day living. It is a long process for a  certified  novice. Adventures are fine - spontaneous living  is great, yet to really live in the moment, to enjoy life, we need to be happy where we are right now. It is not easy. I find my mind drifting from the present, dreaming about travels or dwelling in the past. Yet my soul is looking moments  where I can truthfully say right now I am where I am supposed to be... nothing less and nothing more. No complains, no desires, just simple acceptance. Those moments are not as frequent as they should be.

There are days when all these seemingly small stuff like earning a living and constantly learning overwhelm me. The urge to quit and crawl back into my cave is stronger some days, yet I know that overcoming the day to day challenges  are make me stronger although the fear that it may break me seems too  real at times. So here accepting that time is not just slipping by Knowing when to quit for the right reasons is the key to living. We need to appreciate the small stuff, learn to love the ordinary life to live to the fullest and be at peace, knowing we have all that we need right here, right now.